Whhhaaaaatttttt, is it the great Sarah here with another book review? Why yes, yes it is! Seeing as I have been laid off, I am taking the time to get some reading done....and let me say that I kind of regret this book. Not because it was bad, but because it had such a depressing end. So with that let us begin this ! ( Also it's 2:30 AM so pardon if it seems a little short this go around).
Call Me by Your Nameis the story of a sudden and powerful romance that blossoms between an adolescent boy and a summer guest at his parents' cliff-side mansion on the Italian Riviera. Unprepared for the consequences of their attraction, at first each feigns indifference. But during the restless summer weeks that follow, unrelenting buried currents of obsession and fear, fascination and desire, intensify their passion as they test the charged ground between them. What grows from the depths of their spirits is a romance of scarcely six weeks' duration and an experience that marks them for a lifetime. For what the two discover on the Riviera and during a sultry evening in Rome is the one thing both already fear they may never truly find again: total intimacy.
The psychological maneuvers that accompany attraction have seldom been more shrewdly captured than in André Aciman's frank, unsentimental, heartrending elegy to human passion.Call Me by Your Name is clear-eyed, bare-knuckled, and ultimately unforgettable.
So, to start off, let me just say that I was in a big BL mood. I had been reading some of my manga and I really just wanted a good fiction with some boy's love and so upon looking at my shelf I had this lovely piece of work.
I will say that it was not the story that I was expecting. It was much more deep in the mind of Elio. I was kind of hoping for a bit more of a typical type of read, but in the end I didn't mind. Some of the dialogue was a lot more deep, causing the reader to interpret everything. Not a bad thing, but at times I really wanted to shake Elio and say "Just tell him exactly what you are feeling! Stop hoping he is interpreting things as you want him to!" There is so much there that is left for the other to assume and vice versa. That was the majority of the first half, until they finally get it on.
Which one part I did not like was that afterwards, Elio felt so disgusted and as if he was done. That he regretted this moment. It is completely human, don't get me wrong, but I got lost because the next minute he was like "I can't live without him." I sat there rereading the passage a few times to see if I missed something or skimmed. Which I found myself skimming a little bit towards the end, but I think I was trying to save myself a little.
This really and truly was a story of first love, but an endless love. It was so sad that each one of them still had feelings for the other, but they lived their lives separately. I think the fact that it shows them older and that regret is what really got me. In fact, I feel a little heartbreak just writing this. They could have had such a happy ending, but instead they live this life in a comatose state, imagining it as if it were a parallel life. Elio is still truly, madly, deeply in love with Oliver and Oliver, though he has a family, still truly loves Elio. There is so much there and so much regret...... Gah, the ending is honestly what made this book. Almost like Divergent series; the tragedy that takes place is one that is memorable. I almost wish the ending let the reader interpret their lives, this way I could pretend Elio moved back to America, found Oliver, and they had their happy ending. You definitely feel the emotions in the end, dear lord just thinking about it causes me to tear up. Warning for you, do not put yourself in their shoes as you read, because it leaves a small hole in your chest!
Apparently there is a sequel, but from what I have seen on goodreads it could ruin the first one, so I will not be reading that. Unless it was a parallel life in which they end up together, I do not want to see the rest. The only thing I am curious about is if Elio ever found someone like Oliver did. It states he had multiple lovers, but not that he found one to be with the rest of his life. There is also a movie that came out in 2017. If anyone has seen it, feel free to let me know how you liked it!
“We are not written for one instrument alone; I am not, neither are you.”